So personal to me

Dust in the Wind

She sits in her mirror at night...

She usually finds herself doing that...

Scared of seeing herself

she cuts the light off and lets the glare of the candle catch her face.

Abandoned,scared, and restless

She begins to feel the tears run down her smooth cheeks...

The black mascara smeared all over the place.

She can not believe she is thinking all the horrible thoughts that have consumed her mind

She does the unthinkable...

She grabs the sharp object

slowly cutting towards the bare skin of her naked body.

No hope of going on, she can not bear it...

she looks at life and says,"i didn't give up on life, life has given up on me."

Slowly fading away, she lays down and slowly drifts into a peaceful breeze.

all the memories... packing all her bags, she's finally on the move...

she is leaving today...

she is leaving it to change...

as she is dreaming, she is captured by the good times in her life...

but they are not enough for her to continue like this...

every memory is starting to slip....

she takes one more breath and whispers, "i'm free...finally free."

i let him go

I knew the best thing for me to do was let him go

Let him go where he needs to be.

It broke my heart and all i have done is cry

but in my heart i know that it is the best thing for him.

I know i won't regret this.

I will try not to regret this.

In the end, i hope he finds happiness out of life.

The happiness i need will be pursued one day

Sadly, not from him, but i won't hang my head down.

I will hold my head up high and hide my deepest thoughts.

I will be happy for this decision

and most of all, i will be happy for him.

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder
What are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder
Is there anything I'm going to miss
I wonder How it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there is no one to talk to, between you and me
'Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like...
The hammocks by the doorway we spent time in
Swings empty, don't see lightning like last fall when it was
always
about to hit
me
I wonder how's it going to be when it goes down
Hows it going to be
When your not around
Hows it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care
How's it going to be.
Hows it going to be
When you don't know me any more
And how's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivian
Wanna taste the soul of your skin
The soft dive of oblivian
Oblivian
How's it going to be
When you don't know me any more
How's it going to be
How's it going to be